No, I haven't been playing Russian Roulette. I just thought that the idea of putting your life on the line for no apparent reason is similar to my situation right now, just way more serious. My problems aren't life-or-death situations.
So I've been pretty out of it lately. I haven't been doing a lot of my work, and I'm just really over junior year. I even didn't do an assignment! Some of you might be thinking, "Haha, one assignment, I haven't done my homework since I was a freshman", but for me, not completing an assignment is pretty out of character. Why am I so willing to throw away all of my hard work because I am too lazy to do my work? That's not like me. I guess I've just been too focused on other things lately to really focus on school like I usually do.
I got a summer job this past week at a place that I really really like: American Eagle. However, my manager is saying that if I go to Boston for 4 weeks, which I would be doing at the end of June, I might not be offered my position again when I get back. One of the managers is going to talk to another one of the managers and then decide whether or not it will be okay for me to miss a month of work during the height of the summer season. I guess it was kind of dumb of me to get a job and then, only one month later, leave for a month, but I really wanted that job!
I now have to hope that my manager says that it's okay for me to go on my trip or not. That's going to suck: I finally get a job that I like, and I get fired for going to summer school in Boston. LAME! Now my job is pending, and it all depends on my manager. Russian Roulette must be the scariest game in the world, because that actually puts your life on the line. In my situation, only my job is at stake. All I can do is hope I get lucky and draw a blank because if I don't I will be devastated.
Monday, May 21, 2007
Tuesday, May 15, 2007
Done With Testing? I Think Not!
I am so excited! AP's are over for me! I took APUSH on Friday, and I took AP Biology on Monday, and now I am done with all of my AP's. I only have 3 classes now! And two of those classes don't have finals, so I only have to take one final this semester, and it's going to be on the first day of Finals' Week, so I end school on the 29th!
These next few weeks are going to be so fun. Now that I have no AP Biology (which had two hour-long lectures and two 2-hour-long labs) and no APUSH (which had four hour-long small groups and one hour-long large group), I have a lot of free time in my schedule. However, this in no way means that I get to slack off. I have a lot to do within the next two weeks, and it's going to be difficult to keep up. The relief I felt when I finished my AP's didn't last long, because when I pulled out my schedule I noticed that I have a math test once a week for the next 3 weeks! I also have a paper due this Thursday in one of my English classes, and another paper due next week! This is crazy.
I thought that after AP's were over I was going to be done with school. I thought I would be able to go on cruise control and go into summer mode. Well, that's definitely not the case; at least not for the next two weeks, that is. Actually, more like 3 weeks, because I have an SAT on June 2nd as well. But once June 2nd comes around and I finish my SAT I am immediately entering summer mode.
I am so rediculously excited for this summer, not just because it's summer, but also because this is my last summer as a high school student. By next summer I will be graduating and then moving on to bigger and better things, just like the seniors this year. But enough with looking into the future, I have to get through THIS year FIRST!
These next few weeks are going to be so fun. Now that I have no AP Biology (which had two hour-long lectures and two 2-hour-long labs) and no APUSH (which had four hour-long small groups and one hour-long large group), I have a lot of free time in my schedule. However, this in no way means that I get to slack off. I have a lot to do within the next two weeks, and it's going to be difficult to keep up. The relief I felt when I finished my AP's didn't last long, because when I pulled out my schedule I noticed that I have a math test once a week for the next 3 weeks! I also have a paper due this Thursday in one of my English classes, and another paper due next week! This is crazy.
I thought that after AP's were over I was going to be done with school. I thought I would be able to go on cruise control and go into summer mode. Well, that's definitely not the case; at least not for the next two weeks, that is. Actually, more like 3 weeks, because I have an SAT on June 2nd as well. But once June 2nd comes around and I finish my SAT I am immediately entering summer mode.
I am so rediculously excited for this summer, not just because it's summer, but also because this is my last summer as a high school student. By next summer I will be graduating and then moving on to bigger and better things, just like the seniors this year. But enough with looking into the future, I have to get through THIS year FIRST!
Friday, May 4, 2007
So Much To Do, So Little Time
Yes! The first week of May is OVER!! Well, after today it is at least. Then there are two weeks of killer AP's and then I go on cruise control for a week until the end of the year. Of course there are summer plans to make. Wait a minute, summer is only...3 weeks away (after today and not counting exam week)! WHAT?!?!! Wow, I guess I actually don't have much time to plan.
I haven't even decided what I'm doing for the summer yet. I could go to DC, or to Boston, and then I really want to go to Reno to visit a friend and San Fransisco for the same reason, and Cedar Point, aka roller coaster capital of the WORLD! Now how could I pass up that opportunity? But there is always the limiting factor of, can I afford it? So now it's not only a race against time but also a race to snatch up the few remaining cheap tickets so that I can do as much of the things that I want to do without going over my budget. It doesn't help that I will be paying for all of my trips this year (except for Boston and DC, but I can only do one of those).
With all of those summer options, I have tons of possible agendas for the summer. And what with my crazy schedule for the next couple weeks it is going to be hard to find time to sit down with my parents (as I am not 18 and can't book my own flights) and actually buy and book my flights. This is going to stress me out! Now that I think about how close summer is, I am getting more excited to be done with junior year, but I am also getting anxious because I haven't made my plans and booked my tickets! Worst case cinario: flights are all booked and I have to stay here. I guess that's not that bad. Spending a summer in Hawai'i: millions would kill to do that. I shouldn't complain about that being my fallback plan.
I haven't even decided what I'm doing for the summer yet. I could go to DC, or to Boston, and then I really want to go to Reno to visit a friend and San Fransisco for the same reason, and Cedar Point, aka roller coaster capital of the WORLD! Now how could I pass up that opportunity? But there is always the limiting factor of, can I afford it? So now it's not only a race against time but also a race to snatch up the few remaining cheap tickets so that I can do as much of the things that I want to do without going over my budget. It doesn't help that I will be paying for all of my trips this year (except for Boston and DC, but I can only do one of those).
With all of those summer options, I have tons of possible agendas for the summer. And what with my crazy schedule for the next couple weeks it is going to be hard to find time to sit down with my parents (as I am not 18 and can't book my own flights) and actually buy and book my flights. This is going to stress me out! Now that I think about how close summer is, I am getting more excited to be done with junior year, but I am also getting anxious because I haven't made my plans and booked my tickets! Worst case cinario: flights are all booked and I have to stay here. I guess that's not that bad. Spending a summer in Hawai'i: millions would kill to do that. I shouldn't complain about that being my fallback plan.
Tuesday, May 1, 2007
Who Killed The Electric Car?
Who did kill the electric car? The blame can't be pinned to one person and one person only. No no, it should be spread around to pretty much everyone that got in its way. Whether they were wrong or not in their reasoning, yep, they are guilty. I don't care if they were thinking of the bigger picture or not, they killed it and that makes them bad.
So it goes.
I never really understood why Kurt Vonnegut always said "so it goes" in his book Slaughter-House 5, and I still don't, but I now feel that it applies here. Yes, the electric car died, but this movie (Who Killed The Electric Car?) makes everyone out to be responsible for some horrible crime against humanity. In reality, however, they were twisting the facts to make it seem a lot worse than it was. Only until the end (and even then only for a short segment) do they even talk about the other side of the table: they actually let the accusees speak on their own behalf (amazing!).
That one guy who was in charge of CARB seemed to be smart and sensible and sure of his decision without being demeaning or snide. And I got this from his brief interview segment. Of course the editors would cut out the parts that didn't make him seem like a total loon or devil in disguise, but even without those clips he still seemed sincere as if he were actually looking out for the people he was serving (imagine that: a public service official actually doing his job).
This movie had an agenda, and after finishing it last night I got irritated. Yes, it would have been nice have the option of an electric car for the past 2 years (the last one was crushed in 2005 if I remember the movie correctly), but we should be trying to find ways to bring it back by changing policy. The major problem I saw was that big companies had a monopoly on the car business and enforced policy that would halt projects aimed at decreasing oil profits. But now there should be enough opposition to oil companies (what with oil prices rising and global warming becoming a major issue) that these policies can be changed and taken out of the control of big comopanies and put in the hands of the majority: the people of the United States.
Who Killed The Electric Car? did it's job when it comes to raising awareness of this issue and possible energy source for Americans and people world-wide. I only wish it hadn't been so coniving and blamed people that were just doing their job and looking out for the interests of the people to get there.
So it goes.
I never really understood why Kurt Vonnegut always said "so it goes" in his book Slaughter-House 5, and I still don't, but I now feel that it applies here. Yes, the electric car died, but this movie (Who Killed The Electric Car?) makes everyone out to be responsible for some horrible crime against humanity. In reality, however, they were twisting the facts to make it seem a lot worse than it was. Only until the end (and even then only for a short segment) do they even talk about the other side of the table: they actually let the accusees speak on their own behalf (amazing!).
That one guy who was in charge of CARB seemed to be smart and sensible and sure of his decision without being demeaning or snide. And I got this from his brief interview segment. Of course the editors would cut out the parts that didn't make him seem like a total loon or devil in disguise, but even without those clips he still seemed sincere as if he were actually looking out for the people he was serving (imagine that: a public service official actually doing his job).
This movie had an agenda, and after finishing it last night I got irritated. Yes, it would have been nice have the option of an electric car for the past 2 years (the last one was crushed in 2005 if I remember the movie correctly), but we should be trying to find ways to bring it back by changing policy. The major problem I saw was that big companies had a monopoly on the car business and enforced policy that would halt projects aimed at decreasing oil profits. But now there should be enough opposition to oil companies (what with oil prices rising and global warming becoming a major issue) that these policies can be changed and taken out of the control of big comopanies and put in the hands of the majority: the people of the United States.
Who Killed The Electric Car? did it's job when it comes to raising awareness of this issue and possible energy source for Americans and people world-wide. I only wish it hadn't been so coniving and blamed people that were just doing their job and looking out for the interests of the people to get there.
Saturday, April 28, 2007
Prom Policy
So tonight is senior prom! It's a time to have fun and let loose after a year of hard work and four years of high school under your belt (almost). But it's that "almost" that is key. Drinking is common among those that go to prom, but some aren't careful and do stupid things.
My sister's school had their senior prom a couple of weeks ago, and a bunch of kids rented a school bus to take them to prom (wierd, I know, but there were apparently a lot of kids). Anyway, when the bus got there, all of the kids got off and the bus driver went through the bus to make sure no one forgot anything and what do you think he found? Yes, you guessed it, bottles and bottles of alcohol. He promptly alerted the chaperons and the kids that had been on that bus were sent home from their prom. A couple had to be taken to the hospital for alcohol poisoning and at least three were suspended. The last I heard the authorities at the school were trying to decide whether they would have to expel those seniors. It was their senior year and because they made a bad choice at prom they might not be able to graduate.
I personally don't think it's a big deal what other people do at prom, but if it endangers others or themselves then I have a problem. I think it would be the worst thing in the world to be so close to the end and then be expelled for making some really dumb decisions. Sure, have fun in whatever way you want to, but don't draw so much attention to yourself that you ruin it for others and especially for you.
Prom is a time to have fun, and I hope that everyone going has a blast! I just hope that everyone is "safe and smart" (to quote pretty much every adult in the world).
My sister's school had their senior prom a couple of weeks ago, and a bunch of kids rented a school bus to take them to prom (wierd, I know, but there were apparently a lot of kids). Anyway, when the bus got there, all of the kids got off and the bus driver went through the bus to make sure no one forgot anything and what do you think he found? Yes, you guessed it, bottles and bottles of alcohol. He promptly alerted the chaperons and the kids that had been on that bus were sent home from their prom. A couple had to be taken to the hospital for alcohol poisoning and at least three were suspended. The last I heard the authorities at the school were trying to decide whether they would have to expel those seniors. It was their senior year and because they made a bad choice at prom they might not be able to graduate.
I personally don't think it's a big deal what other people do at prom, but if it endangers others or themselves then I have a problem. I think it would be the worst thing in the world to be so close to the end and then be expelled for making some really dumb decisions. Sure, have fun in whatever way you want to, but don't draw so much attention to yourself that you ruin it for others and especially for you.
Prom is a time to have fun, and I hope that everyone going has a blast! I just hope that everyone is "safe and smart" (to quote pretty much every adult in the world).
Hang Out
We had an assignment in class to go to the place where we hang out. Well, my friends and I don't have one set place where we hang out. We use these mechanical devices called cell phones to find each other and hang out wherever we are around campus, because we are always doing something: eating, working on a paper or a lab report, in the jewelry studio finishing up a project, or trying to concentrate. I didn't know where I was going to go during the period we were given, so I made a bee-line to the silent section in the library, knowing some of my friends would be there during that hour.
As I entered the silent section, I looked at all of the people in there. Most of them had headphones on and were listening to their iPods and MP3's. Some, however, were hunched over their books deep in concentration. I saw one of my friends and parked myself right next to her. I'm not a big fan of the silent section when I want to talk, because usually when I'm in there the library ladies tell me to be quiet because I talk too much. I also leave my stuff in there when my friends and I go to the snack bar during those breaks, and Auntie Trudy gets mad (although Auntie Trudy is never really MAD). This time I just sat there and looked around. I observed my friend, and she was not paying attention to me because she came into the library to finish her math homework. I probably would have been doing the same thing had I not been in class (I can't do homework at home, it's too hard to focus there). I just sat there for a couple of minutes watching my friend and then looking at everyone else in the silent section. Everyone was so focused. I need that discipline, because I am never able to focus on my homework. It's a curse.
I soon left and went outside the library to talk with another friend. She had seen me in the silent section and wanted to go outside because one of the library ladies was eyeing us down because we kept whispering. My friend gave me animal cookies, which I begrudgingly accepted, and proceeded to devour. We stood outside the library and talked for a couple minutes until I had to go back to class. As I walked away from the library, I watched people go in and out of the doors. You couldn't tell that there were actually so many people in that building and what they were doing. From the outside it seemed just like any other building, but inside it was the haven for many overworked teenagers trying to make it though another day for whatever reason.
As I entered the silent section, I looked at all of the people in there. Most of them had headphones on and were listening to their iPods and MP3's. Some, however, were hunched over their books deep in concentration. I saw one of my friends and parked myself right next to her. I'm not a big fan of the silent section when I want to talk, because usually when I'm in there the library ladies tell me to be quiet because I talk too much. I also leave my stuff in there when my friends and I go to the snack bar during those breaks, and Auntie Trudy gets mad (although Auntie Trudy is never really MAD). This time I just sat there and looked around. I observed my friend, and she was not paying attention to me because she came into the library to finish her math homework. I probably would have been doing the same thing had I not been in class (I can't do homework at home, it's too hard to focus there). I just sat there for a couple of minutes watching my friend and then looking at everyone else in the silent section. Everyone was so focused. I need that discipline, because I am never able to focus on my homework. It's a curse.
I soon left and went outside the library to talk with another friend. She had seen me in the silent section and wanted to go outside because one of the library ladies was eyeing us down because we kept whispering. My friend gave me animal cookies, which I begrudgingly accepted, and proceeded to devour. We stood outside the library and talked for a couple minutes until I had to go back to class. As I walked away from the library, I watched people go in and out of the doors. You couldn't tell that there were actually so many people in that building and what they were doing. From the outside it seemed just like any other building, but inside it was the haven for many overworked teenagers trying to make it though another day for whatever reason.
Monday, April 23, 2007
Tired
So I am currently at school at around 1 in the afternoon and I haven't slept since Saturday night. I'm running on empty here. It's definitely not a good feeling. I can tell that there is a difference in the way I'm acting and in the way I am feeling. I don't feel that tired, actually, I just feel drained. I had lunch today and then I felt tons better, so the sleep isn't all that big of a deal. But then again, I had lunch about an hour ago and I am almost as pooped as I was before I had lunch already... maybe that's a sign?
There have been studies on how sleep is essential for humans to function properly. Apparently my school didn't get that message, because this is not an irregular occurrence! Why does my school put so much on my plate at once? I guess it's good practice for the "real world", where nothing is fair and sometimes a deadline can mean your job. I just wish that I didn't have to do so much. I feel so unmotivated, but that could be the lightheadedness talking there. I think it is, I think I am motivated, just not when I am not functioning properly. Maybe tomorrow I'll feel better.
Then again, who am I to blame my school for giving me so much to do? I signed up for these classes, I should have known what I was getting myself into. I guess it's no one's fault but mine, and now I regret trying to do so much, especially towards the end of the year when all I want to do is cruz. Next year I will be more aware of my inability to handle all of the work at the end of the year (especially next year when there is NO WAY I will be doing lots of work!)
I think today has been the hardest day of my life, even though it is probably one of my easier days in my schedule: 8:30 work, 9:30 math, 10:30 plato (1 1/2 hours), 1:30 US History, and 2:30 work again. Unfortunately I did have to go take a Bio test during one of my breaks, so that wasn't fun, and when I'm not even completely up to par either! I guess that's the price for not sleeping. At least I can say it was a learning experience.
There have been studies on how sleep is essential for humans to function properly. Apparently my school didn't get that message, because this is not an irregular occurrence! Why does my school put so much on my plate at once? I guess it's good practice for the "real world", where nothing is fair and sometimes a deadline can mean your job. I just wish that I didn't have to do so much. I feel so unmotivated, but that could be the lightheadedness talking there. I think it is, I think I am motivated, just not when I am not functioning properly. Maybe tomorrow I'll feel better.
Then again, who am I to blame my school for giving me so much to do? I signed up for these classes, I should have known what I was getting myself into. I guess it's no one's fault but mine, and now I regret trying to do so much, especially towards the end of the year when all I want to do is cruz. Next year I will be more aware of my inability to handle all of the work at the end of the year (especially next year when there is NO WAY I will be doing lots of work!)
I think today has been the hardest day of my life, even though it is probably one of my easier days in my schedule: 8:30 work, 9:30 math, 10:30 plato (1 1/2 hours), 1:30 US History, and 2:30 work again. Unfortunately I did have to go take a Bio test during one of my breaks, so that wasn't fun, and when I'm not even completely up to par either! I guess that's the price for not sleeping. At least I can say it was a learning experience.
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