Russian Roulette

No, I haven't been playing Russian Roulette. I just thought that the idea of putting your life on the line for no apparent reason is similar to my situation right now, just way more serious. My problems aren't life-or-death situations.

So I've been pretty out of it lately. I haven't been doing a lot of my work, and I'm just really over junior year. I even didn't do an assignment! Some of you might be thinking, "Haha, one assignment, I haven't done my homework since I was a freshman", but for me, not completing an assignment is pretty out of character. Why am I so willing to throw away all of my hard work because I am too lazy to do my work? That's not like me. I guess I've just been too focused on other things lately to really focus on school like I usually do.

I got a summer job this past week at a place that I really really like: American Eagle. However, my manager is saying that if I go to Boston for 4 weeks, which I would be doing at the end of June, I might not be offered my position again when I get back. One of the managers is going to talk to another one of the managers and then decide whether or not it will be okay for me to miss a month of work during the height of the summer season. I guess it was kind of dumb of me to get a job and then, only one month later, leave for a month, but I really wanted that job!

I now have to hope that my manager says that it's okay for me to go on my trip or not. That's going to suck: I finally get a job that I like, and I get fired for going to summer school in Boston. LAME! Now my job is pending, and it all depends on my manager. Russian Roulette must be the scariest game in the world, because that actually puts your life on the line. In my situation, only my job is at stake. All I can do is hope I get lucky and draw a blank because if I don't I will be devastated.