Monday, March 12, 2007

Procrastination

It is painful to admit, but I have a problem. My problem: procrastination. I have been a procrastinator for the last two or three years. I can't really remember how I got started, but I do remember not thinking I was a procrastinator until very recently. I remember my friends telling me, "Katie, you have a problem, and we think you should get some help", but I wouldn't listen. I didn't think I needed help, I didn't think I needed anyone. I was enjoying my Saturdays not doing homework, and then getting it all done late Sunday night at the expense of my parents' electric bill and my sleeping patterns.
I can remember first entering high school and being a very studious young girl ready to take on anything. That was then. I remember that I had set a schedule for myself to get all of my work done before I got home. But there was one day in particular that I remember when I had a lot of homework assigned, most of it not even for the next day (you know the kind: a project due a week from now, a paper due in a couple days, and the like). I spent every single break I had that day vigorously working in the library to finish a lab report, an English paper, and my math homework, while still trying to find time to eat lunch and see my friends. This was early on in the school year, and I remember the huge amount of stress I had. It was too much. I gave in. I skipped lunch. This was the start of a downhill trend.
Ever since freshmen year, my studying habits have deteriorated into something resembling not doing work at all. Although giving up lunch that day back in freshmen year might not seem significant, take a look at my previous history. I never had a problem before this balancing time between the regular activities (eating, sleeping, exercising, hanging out, homework, and school), but that day changed everything. I could not finish everything I needed to in the time I had, a sad realization that soon came to fruit in my junior year of high school.
This past weekend, I think, was the worst case of procrastination I have ever had. Saturday was Junior Function at school, so I couldn't do any homework. Of course, that is just another excuse I tell myself so that I can deal with the fact that I procrastinate. Anyway, Sunday I ended up not being home until after dinner, so I started my homework then. But, of course, I needed some music, so I turned on iTunes and listened to a playlist I made. And then my foot fell asleep. And then Futurama was on, and then Family Guy, so I couldn't do my work then. I mean, who would not watch an episode of Family Guy, right?
To make a long story short, I went to bed at 3 in the morning not having finished my homework for the next day. I woke up at 6:30 to finish the unfinished lab report, and then came late to school because it took longer than I had expected. I then quickly scribbled answers to my math homework in my workbook and went to math, and luckily my math teacher didn't make us show work! This is not the way to do it. I am not supposed to be struggling to finish homework after having two days to do it! I am not supposed to be putting Family Guy before AP Biology homework. I am not supposed to be procrastinating on my work at all! I write to you as someone with a problem. I realize that now. I learned from my mistakes, and I want to change. I know it will be hard, but I want to change. I don't want to be a procrastinator any more.

1 comment:

Marissa said...

You must have a super hardcore group of friends because the majority of people I know procrastinate, even the ones who are good students. I know what you mean about feeling disappointed when you have a lot of time to do work, but end up pushing it back for fun activities. That's happened to me, too. Anyway, good for you for trying to change!